Free-Falling
Free falling through space. Chaos. One day at a time. Adventure. These are all words that could be used to describe my life this last season. Depending on what lens one wanted to look through.
It has been a whirlwind. Highs and lows. A grand adventure I must say, and that is exactly what I asked for.
Since my grandfather passed it feels like it has been one thing after another. A peak followed by a valley. And another one. The momentum enough to make even the best adventurer's head spend. It's been pure chaos. Absolute magic.
My friend and coach showed up this week to help me. I have been learning to ask for help when I need it, so I did, and here she came. To be completely honest the little bit of savings I had managed to put aside is officially gone and with the week I took off to grieve I have now left the charted territories of having a back up parachute of any kind. And now we are free falling through time and space.
So when I called Cam it went something like this, "Look I've got seeds planted, I've been working, I feel overwhelmed, and I just don't really know where to go from here. Please help. I want it coach, I want it this bad. Hold me under the ice water and let's go."
So she did. And we did. And it's been a hard week. I don't think I've ever worked as hard as I'm working right now, in this moment. Because it's my dream that we are chasing. My dream of doing what everyone said couldn't be done. And don't tell me I can't do something, it will make me do it even harder. Stubborn. It's a thing.
My dream of complete FREEDOM living the life of my dreams. And so she said, "I got you sister. Let's do this." So we are doing just that. And boy is it fun, even in the madness of it all. Exhilarating. The opposite of mundane for sure.
And we have been tested. Oh, have we been tested. Because the enemy comes after you hardest right at your precipice. The contraction right before the expansion. We are in the birthing canal of greatness.
But together we are stronger. And we keep bringing the challenges to each other and working through them together. Teamwork.
We weren't built to do this life thing alone. Trust me I have tried, and this way is much more fun. Because together we are building this thing. One day at a time, one moment at a time, one brick at a time
And I am grateful. I am grateful for every tear we have cried together this week. I am grateful for every storm that has come towards us this week. I am grateful for every valley that has lead to every peak that we have crossed together. Because this is the grandest of adventures I have wandered down and I am so grateful to have a true friend and partner to share this one with.
So that we can share this story with all who dare to follow their dreams after us.
Tools Used Here:
Asking for help, and being open to receive.
I prayed for help.
I then took action and asked my coach for help.
I was coachable.
I openly shared my struggles, complete vulnerability, trust fall.